La Trip De Sematan: I

zZzZzz...

*bday yoo*

stumbling around,...

and i found him.

sometimes,.. blood ain't thicker than water...

i used to remember mak talked a lots about them during my child hood. he's a good-tough-strong man just like his late father. and nurhanina was the given name by his father. i don't even had any memories with anyone of them in the family, though they may had me a little in theirs. i wrote letters to two of other brothers when i was in primary school. we kept in touch for several years through the snail-post and it's actually encouraged to the hobby of collecting stamps in my child hood. both whom i realize still keep their feet on the ground. the aunt's who used to be my babysitter back then, was cried on 2003, the first time she meet me after "we" left on 1984. she and them haven't yet meet abah and mak since then. and the only memories i had with late grandma was in photographed...

thinking back...

grew up among the cuzzies,... i really want to be part of them... once. i want to be a real "iban" just like them, to speak like them, to eat what ever they eat, to be loved like them, coz every family members loved them and i don't want to feel left out, to go to church every sunday and singing with them, to had a fun like them.... once and was.
they seems enjoy the life that i wish i can be with them. but there was empty soul in joy,...

glad. i'm neither of them.

# "things" do change the person,, heart and soul.
(when the money and power play it roles)

# some people are really good in marketing their "trust" too.

kija

direct obertaim lima hari, walopun status aku cuma sekadar "part timer", tapi seminggu tok gua full time tahap "permanent". boss aku gi kl. joli. so, boss joli di kl, aku joli di tempat kija. orait apa..., kadang-kadang pratikkan idea israel. yang sik israel nya,... lelah. kija tujuh jam tok pun dah rasa nak terbabak isi-isi kulit. ngantok iboh cerita laa... masa bejalan pun leh otometik tertido. lom gik kira part baju sloar yang gik dalam baldi.

... bla-bla-bla-h

for all the life we've had,,,

remember when i was young and so were you and time stood still and love was all we knew
remember when we vowed the vows and walked the walk. gave our hearts, made the start, it was hard
we lived and learned, life threw curves. there was joy, there was hurt
remember when old ones died and new were born and life was changed, disassembled, rearranged
we came together, fell apart and broke each other's hearts
remember when the sound of little feet was the music, we danced to week to week
brought back the love we found trust
vowed we'd never give it up

now looking back it's just a stepping stone to where we are,... where we've been...